ER tomorrow

I have had monitoring everyday for the past 3 days and the shots were getting to be exhausting. I was so ready to trigger but every day they said "no, we're pushing you a bit more"!  No bad side effects this time but I was just so tired and got headaches a lot. I think both the lack of side effects and exhaustion might be because we have stayed active sightseeing and stuff so I was able to be distracted.

Finally they had me trigger last night so ER will be tomorrow morning at 7am! We have to be there at 5:30am. Yikes!  Our son is with us and we can't really leave him in the hotel room (lol) so he's coming with.  They don't allow kids in the waiting room so my husband will go in and leave his sample first while I wait in the car.  Then I'll go in once he comes back out and he will go back to the hotel with our son.

Really getting nervous now but all will be ok. I'm certainly in good hands.  My doctor said that things look really good and he is expecting 8-10 eggs (mature I assume as some eggs will be immature).  They had me do a lupron trigger though which was interesting. My E2 level was at 2400ish and had about 12 follicles that were measurable on my trigger day so I don't really seem to be close to overstimming. When I asked my nurse about why I was doing a lupron trigger she said that they wanna avoid the risk of OHSS. So I donno. My re did suspect that my eggs were overcooked for my 1st and 3rd cycle - both of which used the straight HCG trigger so maybe that is the reasoning behind it too. Once I get HCG, my body responds too well...? Well...whatever.

Tomorrow at this time, I'll be resting up and I'll know how many eggs they got. Then the part that I dread will start. They will call with more details regarding number of mature eggs and fertilization rate on Thursday.  And then on day 5 (or day 6 - not exactly sure about the timeline) they'll call with the number of blasts and how many were biopsied and frozen. After that, we wait 2 weeks for the CCS testing results.  This will tell us how many are chromosomally normal.  If we have at least 1 normal embryo we can move forward with the frozen transfer cycle. If we don't have anything, that's probably going to be it I guess. I doubt we'd do another retrieval.  It will be very hard to accept if that happens.  To invest so much time and effort for not even a transfer.

For now I'm trying to focus on just tomorrow and breaking up this whole journey in to pieces. It's so hard though to keep from wondering what God has in store for us.