Last Saturday marked 37 weeks - aka FULL TERM!! YAY!! That means if I go in to labor right now - baby will be ready. I'm not feeling any different really. Just more of all the usual symptoms - more sleepless nights, more breathlessness, sore feet, etc. especially pelvic pressure. I feel like I have to drag my belly around now. The lack of sleep doesn't seem to be affecting me that much though. I'm still productive at work and still want to do things at home. It's just that physically I can't - which gets really frustrating. I love the fall season and there is nothing more that I like to do at this time of year than go on long walks with the dog. Well, none of that for me these days! I'm lucky to be able to take her on a walk for 4 blocks. LOL! The fall season always inspires me to start cooking up a storm too - also something I can't do so much due to not being able to stand on my feet for long periods of time. Boooo!!! Thank God for crockpots though:)
Good news is that it'll be all over soon. I have less than 3 weeks til my due date and even if the lil guy decides to be late, this time next month I will definitely NOT be pregnant! Seems weird to think about. We spent so much time and energy to get pregnant that when we were finally successful it seemed like a dream at first. I still couldn't believe it well in to my 2nd trimester. But something changed between then and now - it became normal to be pregnant and almost feels like I've been pregnant for much longer than I really have been. I look back to 1 year ago when we were just starting to go thru our first IVF cycle and I cannot believe that it was only 1 year ago! I was so uncertain about any of this and had so much anxiety about the unknown - how I would react to the meds, how many tries it would take, the financial and emotional cost. So much has happened both physically and emotionally since then. Even our identities have changed. Before we viewed our infertility as a part of who we were - something that we just had to live with. But now, we don't see ourselves that way anymore. It was just a temporary condition that we had to conquer - it was never who we were... but that's what it really felt like. That sense of desperation and failure was so normal that we didn't notice feeling that way after awhile. I'll never forget what that felt like and am actually grateful that God gave us that cross to bear because it has truly made us better people. We will never consider ourselves as fully "fertile" though. Getting pregnant did not magically cure our infertility. IVF and God blessed us with a baby and we are forever grateful. But when we start to talk about a possible #2, it will still not be as easy of a decision for us to consider as it would for fertile couples. I think that will be something that we will both want (still have to wait and see for how things work out with this lil guy) - but chances are it still won't be easy. ...Anyway, I digress....this is a thought for another day!
Back to the present - things have been such a whirlwind!! The main culprit is work. I have had deadline after deadline for the past 2 months - driving me CRAZY! I wanted to take it easy my 3rd trimester and be able to "coast" until the end at work. But it has not turned out that way. So my blogging endeavors have been just posting my weekly or biweekly belly pic. I do have week 37 but have been lazy transferring the picture to the computer. I wish we had started taking the pics with just my iphone - that way there would be none of this plugging in stuff to get the pic on the computer! Ah, how spoiled I have become! Used to be that I had to go to CVS to get the pics developed and I had to wait a whole hour for someone else to develop them. Then to get them on the computer I would either have to request a CD or scan them in. Things have definitely gotten simpler! And now I complain about just having to go downstairs to get the camera and plug it in. Ack! Oh well, I'll post it later tonight I swear!
So I'm in between deadlines today. Just coming off of the last mega push last Friday. Gearing up for the next push coming up next week but it should be a much easier deadline. After that who knows what I'll be working on! I wanted to start my leave on October 28th but unless I have a valid medical reason - like I gave birth or I'm having quantifiable difficulties (feeling like a beached whale is not a quantifiable difficulty), I cannot start my leave until I deliver. UGH! People at work have said that I could go on leave whenever I feel like I'm not productive anymore but that's not what HR says. Oh well. Hopefully it won't be much longer. And if I go past my due date I don't think my OB is going to want to let me keep the lil guy in there much longer due to my stature - it's just not healthy for the baby. My supervisor is allowing me to work from home pretty much full time. So that helps out a lot especially since I can barely fit in my last pair of maternity jeans. Just sitting at work is damn uncomfortable regardless of what I'm wearing though. I have a thick cushion on my chair to help with my tailbone and pubic bone pain (but to no avail) and I have a short foot rest under my desk to try to alleviate the swelling - but none of these really help. By the afternoon I am always so swollen and the pain is almost too much. I am MUCH better at home sitting on my couch with thick cushions & feet on my ottoman. It's really shocking how much better I feel. So that's what I've been doing and will continue to do so until it's go time! Plus by working at home I am just a 10 minute drive away from the hospital where I will be delivering at - so should I go in to labor while I'm working I won't have to dangerously drive myself or ask someone at work to drive me home (which would take 30 minutes). Hubby works from home pretty much full time so he'll be here to load up the car and take us to the hospital when I'm ready. They really say to take your time too in getting to the hospital - maybe even take a nap or go to bed if I start contractions at night. I feel like taking a nap or going to bed is totally unrealistic at that point but once contractions are 5 minutes apart I am to call my OB. Assuming she says I'm ready, we'll leave for the hospital - not the second I feel the first contraction. So I don't think it'll be mad chaos but still would rather not have to deal with contractions or possibly my water breaking at work. LOL!
So things have been going well pregnancy-wise. No issues to report. Relatively uneventful - except for the beginning when I was spotting constantly. We had our final ultrasound today to check for "estimated fetal weight". Baby might not be as big as we had feared he would be! He weighed in at 6 lbs. 11 oz. His head is measuring 9 cm. Still small enough to fit thru a fully dilated (10 cm) birth canal. I know he'll grow between now and labor day, but it's a good sign I guess. We have to go back tomorrow for my regular check up and to discuss the results with my OB. I'm hoping she'll be optimistic that I can do it vaginally. However, it'll probably still be a wait and see approach since I'm smaller than most people - I'm confident about my hips though!
I will post another update tomorrow after my appointment. OB will be checking my cervix too so we'll see what she finds! Fingers crossed that something is happening up there!!
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