Great. So I am worried sick right now. It's 1am. I'm so tired but I can't sleep. I took a test this morning (not fmu) and it was unmistakably positive. The darkest line yet. I go about my day. We went to a baseball game this evening in the blistering heat. Had to walk a mile there and back to our car. Exhausted since I'm so out of shape. Anyway, I take a test around 11pm. Just for reassurance to help me sleep. What do I see?? NOTHING!! Not even a faint shadow of a line after waiting 10 minutes. W...T...F!!! My stomach dropped and I felt sick. OMG no! No no no no... Feelings of horror and disbelief take over. How could there be nothing when I had such a dark line just 12 hrs earlier??
I wash up and try to go to bed but it's not working. So I get up again and feel like I need to pee so I take a test again. THIS time a faint line appears but it is so so very faint. I have let it sit for about 1/2 hour and now the line is about as dark as yesterday's tests but nowhere near as dark as today's.
So I'm going crazy. I am relieved that I now see a line at least. That first test I took at 11 has a line now too but it is barely anything. And it only extends halfway thru the window. My line from the very first test at 5dpt was way darker. So I donno if this was just a bunk test or what but it's worked me up a bit. Really wish my beta was tomorrow now! I think I'll call in sick on Monday. Just can't deal with this at work. My symptoms have been weaker today too. But it could be that I've been so active and busy that I haven't felt them.
Ahhh I just hate hate hate this uncertainty! God, please just fast forward to next March so I know the outcome.
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