Not testing before beta

I am not testing before my beta test on Wednesday. I just can't do it! I am enjoying the dream too much to ruin it and create too much anxiety:( I so want to know though! I'm only 2 days away - well really only 1 day now. So if I got thru the past couple days without testing, I'm going to wait. Just starting to get so so so nervous! At least we have plan B - trying again immediately when our insurance rolls over next year... trying to stay positive though.